Burden (a poem)

Take that little piece

It’s okay

Take it

Take it far away from me

Keep it

Burn it

Throw it away

I don’t care

Just take it with you

I don’t want it anymore

It’s such a burden

Such a heavy thing to carry around

You know?

Like an albatross around my neck

A ball and chain

That thing I never noticed

Suddenly became everything to me

Such a noticeable thing I can’t go a day without thinking of

There is always a reminder

Here, there

Every-fucking-where

I can’t get away

So take it

Let your pets eat it

Stomp it under your Converse shoes

Damnit, I don’t care

Just don’t let me keep it

Make me one promise once you have it

Whatever you do with it

Don’t take it for granted

It’s such a burden to have

A heart in love

A Century (a poem)

I thought I was mistaken

Never thought I’d see you again

I watched you die

Slowly, your mortal body

Wilted before my undying eyes

I walked away

Didn’t have the courage to change you

Didn’t have a heart to watch your smile

The light in your eyes

Fade away

When you left you took

A little piece of me

Away with you to Heaven

You promised me you’d see me again

Baby, I just wonder when?

Because immortality is no fun

If I can’t spend it with you

And now you’re here

Back again

But you’re not the same

You don’t know me anymore

A familiar face, the same place

But a different heart inside

A century went by

I barely noticed

Missing you

And now I miss you more

You’re here but you’re not the man I knew

Your heart is hardened

And I don’t know what to do

Can I make your mortal heart open up?

Can you make my immortal soul love again?

Masks (a poem)

I remember a time when
I hid behind a mask
Just so you would
Notice me
A new shade of hair
Lipgloss
A new name

I know now what a fool I was
You didn’t notice me
You didn’t care
You left without a goodbye
You left without a care

Now you say you miss it here
Now it’s too late
You can’t have what you threw away
Be it a city
A career
A person

I am a person
I am who I am
And I know now that
I will never hide behind a mask again

Heartfelt Heroism (a poem)

They say

The true meaning of

A hero is…

To die so that others can live

Love is…

To care for another’s happiness

More than your own

Life cannot be only

This self-sacrificing charade

We live for others

More than ourselves

Their pains hurt us

Their woes devastate us

But it is not our choice

We were born like this

To hold other’s closer than we hold ourselves

To feel what they feel

To try and ease their suffering

Before our own

While we might not understand it

We cannot turn it off

We must embrace it

And hope that we can help

And be all that we can be

All that we were created to be

The Wrong Words (a poem)

Words left unsaid
Unspoken
Left hanging in the air
Like an unpleasant odor
Or a fine mist
So painfully obvious
Yet not acknowledged
Now you’re far away
In a new life
I wonder if I had
Said those obvious words
If you’d still be here
With me
Today

Words spoken in anger
Frustration
Not meant
Not really
But I said them anyway
You didn’t hear
But that doesn’t mean anything
I still said them out loud
Now you’re gone
You’ll never return
I miss you so much
I want to tell you
How sorry I am
For something
That you didn’t even know I said

Why do I say
Angry things that I don’t mean?
And that I can’t ever take back,
When the sweet things get
Left inside my head
Never to be said?

Heart Song (a photo poem)

Dream-Self (a poem)

In my dreams I am
Exactly who I want to be
I am thin
I am pretty
I am successful
But most of all
I am courageous
Brave enough to tell you
Strong enough to kiss you
And hold you here with me
In my dreams I am
Yours
In my dreams you are
Mine

Heart Strain (a poem)

It’s like before
All over again
Still, you’re here
But so far
You’re so far
My heart aches with the strain
Of our connection being tested
You’re pulling the fragile strings
(Tenebrous things!)
And I feel that I
Need to pull, too
Just to keep up with
Get even with you
Was I
(Am I)
So wrong in thinking
We belonged together?
Was it just a dream,
A childish fantasy?
How am I supposed to know
When I still feel
The same way
For you?
I need you to tell me
Though I guess you did already
I’m too young, I know
I just can’t accept that
How can I accept that?
I know what I feel between you and I
Can you deny that
You felt it, too?
Can you deny
My love for you?

First Love (a poem)

I’m still in love with
My first love
Oh, I was but
A child of sixteen
But I knew
Yes, I knew I loved him
The very moment I saw him
The very moment I heard him
He did nithing but
Be the man God made him to be
And I fell so fast
I didn’t feel it happening
I fell so hard
I never realized how much it hurt
When I hit the ground
So violently
The pain was unbearable
I feel it now
Listening to words that were
(Once)
Just for my ears
He holds a piece of me
He took it when he left
He is the only person who can
Give it back
But he’s holding it captive
And the worst part is
I don’t even think
He knows it
It’s been years
I’ve grown up
But still I hold fast to
My feelings for him
Because I believe that
As long as he and I both still
Breathe
There is a chance that he and I could still be
Together
Happily ever after
Because he is
My love
My heart
My angel

Haunting Rain (a poem)

Don’t tell me you miss me
Don’t say my name
Because I know tomorrow
Will bring more of the same
Pain
With you not here
With me
This sunny LA day will
Feel much better
Awash in the rain
Of my tears
Tears of love
Of the joy I felt with you
Tears of longing
This is pain
The tears wash away
The rain
That falls on you now
Oh!
How I wish
Thoughts of you
Didn’t haunt my brain